I Won't Ever Be Happy Again


Well morning came
And it dressed the sky in a lovely yellow gown
Now the shops they are all opening
In that narrow hallway of downtown
Filled with people who are shopping for their lovers and theirfriends
Saying they won't ever be lonely again
Well, the forest fenced becomes backyards
Like songs are born from sound
And the apple fell and it taught us all
We are chained here to the ground
So, I mean, here we go, but there ain't no escape
These streets are just dead ends
So I won't ever be happy again
Now it seems you, too, see a painful blue
When you stare into the sky
You could never understand
The movement of a hand waving goodbye
But as the story goes, or it is often told
A new day will arise
And all the dance halls will be full of skeletons
That are coming back to life
And on a grassy hill the lion will lay down with the lamb
And I won't ever be lonely again
But until that time I think I'd better find some disbelief to suspend
'Cause I don't want to feel like this again


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The Joy in Discovery


Why do you lay in the grass?
Don't you want to be found?
Don't you want that?
Isn't the Sun even going to try
To find a hole in the clouds?
Isn't it even going to try?
Why won't it try that?
Why do you lay so low in the grass?
Don't you want to be found?
Don't you want to be found?
I thought you wanted that?


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The Joy in Forgetting/The Joy in Acceptance


There's a cat in the window of the house of my lover
Well, she sleeps there alone now, or perhaps with another
Oh, I try not to think about that
I try not to think at all
I get cocaine from a girl I met and my brother buys me alcohol
And I stay up all night
Walking through these houses I have grown to hate
And my parents ask if I'm all right
I say, 'I've just been staying up too late'
I need to sleep
I need to do something to get this awful weight up off my chest
To keep her pretty ghost from chasing me
Her ghost from chasing me, from chasing me

So you say there are spaces open and wide
Believe me, there's days longer than nights
And you will be happy the minute you try
But you don't try, no, you don't try
And you speak of a fever that burns you inside
As you explain to your mother how you've wanted to die
So she kisses your fingers and says 'My darling but why?
When there is so much more
There is so much more
Do you know there are spaces open and wide
Oh, believe me, there's days longer than nights
And you will be happy if only you'd try
Oh, won't you try?
Oh, won't you try?


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Lovers Turn Into Monsters


Lovers turn into monsters at the loss of all affection
Almost like it was the affection that kept them from being monsters
And I could have used some warning
I was on that porch all morning
Smoking cigarettes and sinking deeper into doubt
Could it be I am mistaken, have I stolen somebody's baby?
Is it possible for two people to need the same thing?
It's just the lines, they get so blurry
Between what is once, and now required
And I don't know on which side his heart falls
But I know where mine is buried
And it's so far from any wanting
Yeah, it needs this to keep beating
It won't go on without it
If I'm still weighed down with subt'leties
Then I'll just come right out and say
That I think that I deserve her
More than anyone deserves anything
Maybe I am selfish, but there is no way to share this
There's not enough to go around, I don't care who else gets hurt
But I'm still sick with empathy because I was stood in his place
I spent a year quietly dying while you let go and ignored her
And I'm sure that there are reasons for everything that happens
And absence leads to adoration, yeah it's nobody's fault
But now there is no way to change this
So I just photographed and framed it
And it's hanging in a hallway
That we have no right to walk back down
But I hope that he feels better but I'm sick of all the drama
I can't stand to see her crying, I just want this shit to end
And I want a place to hang out where a record player's playing
And there's a thousand movies rented for a thousand nights with her


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