Didn't Know What I Was in For

My telephone, it doesn't have a camera
If it did I'd take a picture of myself
If it did I'd take a picture of the water
And the man on the offramp
Holding up the sign that's asking me for help
I got a job and I'll work here for the summer
I fold the towels and set them by the pool
Everyone looks happy with each other
'Til they step away and say the thing they really meant
They always sound so cruel
I didn't know what I was in for
When I signed up for that run
There's no way I'm curing cancer
But I'll sweat it out
I feel so proud now for all the good I've done
I know a girl who owns a boutique in the city
Selling clothes to the fashionably late
Says she cries at the news but doesn't really
'Cause it's too much fun, it's too much time
And too much plastic money to be made
I didn't know what I was in for
When they took my belt and strings
They told me I'd gone crazy
My arms are strapped in a straight jacket
So I couldn't save those TV refugees
When they're on their backs
In a bloody bath
Full of sarin gas
On a screen
I didn't know what I was in for
When I laid out in the sun
We get burned for being honest
I've really never done anything, for anyone
To fall asleep I need white noise to distract me
Otherwise I have to listen to me think
Otherwise I pace around, hold my breath, let it out
Sit on the couch and think about
How living's just a promise that I made


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Sleepwalkin'


Like, it's, it's impossible to count
One, two, three, four
Drinking cold, black coffee
I shake and shake, still won't get off me
Another blissed out fantasy
Where animals and objects talk to me
Always try and hate it
But then you laugh, it sounds outrageous
Spend another day sleepwalking
Is this having fun?
Or is it just because?
Which one is jumping first
Off of the face of the earth?
You like beer and chocolate
I like setting off those bottle rockets
We can never compromise
But fighting 'til the death keeps us alive
Why don't you stay
If you're going to leave your car here anyway?
Spend another summer shit-talking
Is this having fun?
It's not like the way it was
I thought that you loved this stuff
Or did I make that up?
Act insane, playing it safe
I wasn't sold on that plan anyways
Feeling afraid of making a change
Hoping to last another day
I want there to stop the circular dots
Spinning in a world full of forget-me-nots
I gave what I got
It came as a shock
To find out I'm fine with what I've lost


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Dylan Thomas


It was quite early one morning
Hit me without warning
I went to hear the general speak
I was standing for the anthem
Banners all around him
Confetti made it hard to see
Put my footsteps on the pavement
Starved for entertainment
Four seasons of revolving doors
So sick of being honest
I'll die like Dylan Thomas
A seizure on the barroom floor
I'm getting greedy with this private hell
I'll go it alone, but that's just as well
These cats are scared and feral
The flag pins on their lapels
The truth is anybody's guess
These talking heads are saying
"The king is only playing a game of four dimensional chess"
There's flowers in the rubble
The weeds are gonna tumble
I'm lucid but I still can't think
I'm strapped into a corset
Climbed into your corvette
I'm thirsty for another drink
If it's advertised, we'll try it
And buy some peace and quiet
And shut up at the silent retreat
They say you've gotta fake it
At least until you make it
That ghost is just a kid in a sheet
I'm getting used to these dizzy spells
I'm taking a shower at the Bates Motel
I'm getting greedy with this private hell
I'll go it alone, but that's just as well


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Service Road


You should really call your brother
Someone put up a picture where he can't stand
He's holding onto the table
Probably throwing darts or playing cards
Something that he lost made him so mad
Always said it didn't matter
With a pile of filthy coins clenched in his hands
Asking strangers to forgive him
But he never told him what it is
He did to them that made him feel so bad
Say what you mean and say it now
Don't state your name, that doesn't count
Who are you?
Who are you-
Looking for?
Thought that he was doing better
A notice, final eviction, he just laughed
Always had a sense of humor
We still joked until the bitter end
While all those steps he made can't walk them back
In and out of indecision
In and out of any options he once had
Farewell, so long
'Til the trouble that you made and hate is gone
Say what you mean and say it now
Don't throw a fit, quit acting out
Who are you?
Who are you-
Waiting for?
Just go out into the falling snow
Just go towards the light in the skylight
Just go past the trucks on the service road
Just go until you feel different


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Exception to the Rule


You need an occupation
To warrant a vacation
Without anticipation
Nothing's satisfactory
I came out here to check out
Get away from my house
Now I don't leave this couch
Or turn off the TV
There's always an exemption
There's always an exception to the rule
Always an exemption
There's always an exception to the rule
Why don't you want it?
Why don't you want it anymore?
Why don't you want it?
Why don't you want it anymore?
I wanted to avoid it
Live out in the forest
Play out of that orbit
Go drifting out to sea
But fate just wouldn't have it
It treats us like a magnet
Mends my broken habits
And makes a fool of me
There's always an exemption
There's always an exception to the rule
Always an exemption


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Chesapeake


To a world we'll not remember
When we're old and tired
We'll be blowing on the embers of a little fire
We were the tallest person watching in Chesapeake
You put me on your shoulders so I could see
I was all covered in sound
Ear plugs so it wasn't loud
Swallowed up by the crowd
Didn't know what they were singing about
I can't hardly wait
For someone to replace
It was hot in the arena
Good men die like dogs
My hero plays to no one, in a parking lot
Even though there's no one around
He broke a leg and the house came down
A smattering of applause
A sliver moon and a cover song
Oh sweet child of mine
You're always sorry for everything, never apologize
Oh sweet child of mine
Now you stand on the corner and hope you get recognized
I was all covered in sound
When you asked me to turn it down
Didn't even think it was loud
Can you hear it now?


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My City


Looking out on the river bend
Looking out on the thing that isn't
Looking out on the freeway's push and pull
Looking out for the current
Little spells of forgetfulness
Little sounds that are shrill and urgent
Little insects that sting as they come and go
Little moments of purpose
I loved you
I wore you out
I miss you
Where are you now?
This town is a monolith
This town is a crowded movie
This town is a depot, I come and go
This town is my city
I hate you
I tore you down
I miss you
Where are you now?
Looking bad like those Vegas odds
Wear a smile like it's camouflage
Today was a smoking sky
Today was a civic menace
Today I went walking while things explode
Some sad independence
I want to be just as loud
All this freedom just freaks me out
Risk it all on the game of chance
Chasing love like an ambulance


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Forest Lawn


You used to sing with a straight face "Que Sera, Sera"
And drive those perfumed queens back to our place in a velvet box
And then make your move
Since you went underground
I've wanted to track you down
Since you went underground
I've wanted to dig you out
You used to sing with a straight face "My Heart Will Go On"
And bring those tattoo'd freaks back to our place in a mason jar
You had something to prove
Since you went underground
I've wanted to track you down
Yeah, since you went underground
I've wanted to dig you out
You passed out quick
You lack ambition
Why does everybody always end up in the kitchen?
The man in white slacks sure looks dangerous
And I heard the short one's kind of famous
You used to say you wanted to end up in Forest Lawn
The two of us side by side asleep while the teenagers drink 'til dawn
Please tell me it's true
Since you went underground
I've wanted to track you down
Since you went underground
I've wanted to dig you out
You used to sing with a straight face "Que Sera, Sera"


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Big Black Heart


Your black hair is red
I laughed when I saw your chest
You shook your head and pulled the curtains back, took in the view
Then you showed me the rest of you
And then I guess I thought I'd see the world
I guess I thought I would see the world
Your black heart is big
I'd ask you to cross but you'd never do it
But then again you stopped in the middle of the street
Just to kiss me, and I thought you'd stopped the world
I guess I thought you could stop the world
Alright, alright for now
Don't wanna think about it
I'm fine with hiding out
Alright, alright for now
I'll wrap my head around it
Make room for something else
Alright, alright for now
Don't wanna think about it
I'm fine with hiding out
Alright, alright for now
I'll wrap my head around it
Make room for something else
'Til then I'll hold it down


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Dominos


Can you hear the crickets?
All I hear is crickets
Like a river
Shining through the edges of my sight
The sky is pitch black, dark
Yet somehow really peaceful
At the same time
It gets dark in the morning
Trade sleep for drinks in a bar
I'm sure as hell my breath stinks
Watch it float like smoke in the fog
I can feel a tornado
And it's shivering up my arms
I've been playing dominoes
I'm just trying not to wreck no cars
Putting fear in my nose
And trying to keep up with all my thoughts
If we're going somewhere, I'm ready
If it's just dirt, I'm not
I scrape my eye when I touch the sky
And lose a little vision for the man
I can call it in my mind
I don't want to hold nobody's hand
I can toss in the morning light
I'll play dead when I'm buried in the sand
I'm seeing shadows of man a who's
Homeless, buried and numb
A forecast of forgotten land
I hope it shows up in the setting sun
If we're going somewhere, I'm ready, honey
If it's nowhere, I'm done
I can hear a voice but it's speaking code
(Poured concrete on top, concrete on top, concrete)
Like I'm talking to strangers on a foreign phone
I can talk to angels when I'm all alone
They take me to a place in the city
And when we're done they take me home
Can't find a forest with the singing birds
Instead I'm just a low voice in the crowd
Can't hear my own voice in this crowd
I get edgy on dark streets
Coming home, I feel my heartbeat
I say I'm stoned for the last time
I do it again and repeat
I'm carpooling to kingdom come
Into the wild purgatory
Experience in a magic rainbow
All you got to do is follow
And if you're not feeling ready
There's always tomorrow
And if you're not feeling ready
There's always tomorrow

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